I've decided to discuss something with you all that's been going on for quite some time. Hold on to your butts.... ;-)
I've recently (ok, for like 5 months) been dealing with my fair share of anxiety. Seriously guys, it's been a problem. My hair started falling out about 4 months ago, my psoriasis broke out like crazy, and I put on some excess weight. I didn't feel like talking about it because I didn't think it was a big deal. I figured I was just super busy and everything was getting to me, but once things calmed down I would be back to my old self. Well, things calmed down slightly, but I didn't. I would freak out over the smallest things. I forgot my cell phone the other day and you'd think that the sky was falling. It's a bit ridiculous really. Darren forgot the diaper bag one day, and it resulted in a full blown fight in which case I completely freaked the hell out. I knew it was crazy, but the words kept coming and I couldn't stop. As ridiculous as it may be, I'm not ashamed of this at all. I was, but why should I be ashamed of myself? We all have issues, and I know this is stemmed from something deeper than I ever could have realized. Figuring it out is the mountain I am climbing right now.
The good news is, I've finally acknowledged this problem I have. I'm talking about it with others and I feel better about it. Focusing on me and setting aside some "me" time has really helped as well. Focusing on my family and what really makes me happy (photography) is also really important to me.
2012 was a pretty tough year....trying to juggle the full-time gig, family, photography, moving, school and the new pupster was a bit of a challenge. I never realized I could be so busy! 2013 is definitely moving in the same direction as far as busy bustle is concerned, but the difference is I am ready for it. I know what to expect, and I know what I want to concentrate on. I know it's easier said than done, but, I want to go forward in this new year with a clear mind and a fresh attitude. I know I'll still have my freak outs, but...baby steps right?
So, for the first time like...ever....I've compiled a list of things I want to do this year. They are not necessarily resolutions, but goals I want to set for myself. If I don't meet them, it's not a big deal to me, just as long as I've tried. This also fits into Lauren and Tiffany's link-up for the week. Sorry I'm a day late, ladies. ;-)
1.) Lose weight and get healthier--I have to do this. It makes me feel better, physically and emotionally. I want to do this for my health's sake. It's extremely important to me.
2.) Set aside for time for "me"--Whether it is to go get a pedicure, get my hair done, or do a bit of shopping, I want to set aside more time for myself.
3.) Do more things as a family-- As a family, we spend quite a bit of time together, but I want us to get out more. I want to take more day trips as a family...to the zoo, aquarium, shopping....the place doesn't matter, just as long as we're together, having fun. :-)
4.) Take more pictures of my family-- You'd think since I am a photographer I would take tons of pictures of my family. I take my fair share, but not nearly as many candids as I would like. I get so caught up in "doing", that I forget to sit back and click away at the moments that matter. I want to get better at this.
5.) Try one new recipe a week-- It seems like we always eat the same old stuff. I want to try some new tasty things. :-)
6.) Go on at least two dates a month-- A date, in my opinion, is just spending some quality time with my hubby. It doesn't matter what we do, just as long as we get to spend time together by ourselves. We're pretty good at this now, but, I want to stick with it.
7.) Get all of our house projects done-- I get so caught up in everything else that I feel like I neglect our house projects. I have nothing on our walls because I want to paint them; we have new ceiling fans and fixtures that need to be installed; and we have flooring that we need to put in. I need to set aside time to do these things.
8.) Get my new photography studio finished-- In our new house, we have the perfect area for my photography studio. I have a space set up currently, but the new space is beyond perfect! I need to get some people over here for estimates and to get the work started on it. This is something I definitely want to accomplish for myself, and my business.
9.) Blog more-- I did really good at this for awhile last year, but life got in the way and I started blogging less. I really want to utilize this space, and I hope to delve into this fully this year. I'm excited!
10.) Just be-- I just want to "be". It sounds simple, but I think it will be difficult....we'll see I guess. :-)
Well, there we have it. I actually feel better that I have all of this written down. So, let's see if I can stick to it and get it all worked out.
Bring it on 2013. I am ready! :-)
Happy Wednesday, folks! I hope you all had a wonderful holiday. :-)